Busy Busy Busy :(

It's been ages since my last post as I've been too busy recently. Busy busy busy.. I started hating that word from the bottom of my heart, even more than my friends have come to hate it, not to mention my family of course. I really don't know what's wrong with me!! I mean, it should be normal that people have jobs, and normal that they do a thing or two beside it, no big deal.. Then why am I on the verge of a nervouos breakdown? I want to feel that my time is MINE. I want to do the things I wanna do. I wanna have the time to call up my friends to say hello, to ask about relatives and find some time for Mum, to help her with the stuff she wants and have little chats with her. But I can't do any of that. Not to mention of course all the BLAME I'm getting. Thank GOD my friends seem to unerstand (well most of them). But family... My mum for example is putting so much pressure on me. She's asking me for simple stuff yes, but I always have a 10000 things to do when she asks for that stuff, besides, the things she asks for are never that critical and there's always someone else that can help her with them. Sometimes my commitments get too much for me to take and I miss my friends too much and I decide to take some time off and go out to see friends. I come home feeling relieved, refreshed and ready to go on with my responsibilities, but of course Mum has to remind me how I was able to find the time for my friends, but I can never find the time to help her. I know I owe her, I know I should be more co-operative, but usually when I decide to go out, that means I alreay have reached that point that if I go on one more step without refreshment I'll just breakdown. Conclusion: I dunno what to do...!