Bitter Sweet Symphony

It was the first time for me to be be with them yesterday and attend a gathering after what had happened. I was kept away for a long time, to be able to concentrate on the studying and the project, and all that stuff that seems so meaningless in comparison. Till now I wasn't able to understand. Till now I haven't fully absorbed it and can't believe it is for real. But it felt so real yesterday. We were all there except for her. You get to see the missing part of the picture when all the other parts are there, it's close to completion, close to perfection, yet there's this large part missing.. and such a precious part it is.. so sweet and special.. but she wasn't there anymore and there's no way we could have her back. It all felt so weird. Almost like a bitter sweet symphony. It's amazing how such tiny creatures can bring the smile to the saddest hearts, and break the deepest silence, yet not even all the smiles in the world can take that pain away, nothing could cure the heart of someone who had suffered such a loss.. A part of us was just not there.. A part so precious and close to everybody's heart.. and we knew we could never get her back..