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Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles that's what you do :)

Straight from the heart, dedicated to the very special ones in my life that know just how to touch my heart and speak right to my soul. I can't imagine how my life would've been without a single one of you. Thank you for everything :)

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"I am of the nature to grow old. There is no way to escape growing old."

"I am of the nature to have ill health. There is no way to escape ill health."

"I am of the nature to die. There is no way to escape death.'

"All that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature to change. There is no way to escape being separated from them.'

"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand."

I came across this article which presents the Buddha five Rememberances (the statements above) and advises us to use them in yoga meditation. It says that once you accept the reality of impermanence, you begin to realize that grasping and clinging are suffering, as well as the causes of suffering, and with that realization you can let go and celebrate life. The problem is not that things change, but that you try to live as if they don't.

True as it all sounds I just plain hate it. I don't mind 1,2,3 or 5. It's 4 that really rings a bell. It's not like it's the first time for me to hear this. I am aware of that fact, yet in denial. An almost willful ignoring of reality, a reality that I don't seem to accept or give in to easily. I'm rather trying to resist it with all the strength. The article suggests that "You may experience huge relief as the energy you've spent denying and hiding from the truth is liberated to move freely through your body." as you let the remembrances sink deep into you. They are saying this about people that just hide from it, then how about one that tries to resist it?! They don't really need to tell me. I feel it already. I feel so tied down. I can't move on and I don't want to. All I want is to be surrounded by the people I love and appreciate dearly for the rest of my life. I only feel safe when they are around, when I know I can run to them and cry. I never want to lose our connections; connections so deep and meaningful with people that are simply so rare to find.

Someday

Someday Lyrics
by Eternal

Someday
When we are wiser
When the world's older
When we have learned
I pray
Someday we may yet live
To live and let live
Someday
Life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
And greed will not pay
God speed
This bright millennium
On its way
Let it come
Someday

Someday
Our fight will be won then
We'll stand in the sun then
That bright afternoon
'Till then
On days when the sun is gone
We'll hang on
If we wish upon the moon

There are some days dark and bitter
Seems we haven't got a prayer
But a prayer for something better
Is the one thing we all share

Someday
When we are wiser
When the whole world is older
When we have learned
I pray
Someday we may yet live
To live and let live
One day, someday
Someday
Life will be fairer
Need will be rarer
Greed will not pay
God speed
This bright millennium
Let it come
If we wish upon the moon
One day
Someday
Soon

One day
Someday
Soon

Exhale

Dedicated to all the Broken hearted :(
May ALLAH protect our hearts, may HE bring happiness to the sad ones.
Just before I cause any worries, this song is not for me

Everyone falls in love sometime
Sometimes it's wrong, and sometimes it's right
For every win, someone must fail
But there comes a point when
When we exhale (yeah, yeah, say)

Shoop, shoop, shoop
Shoop be doop, shoop, shoop
(repeat)

Sometimes you'll laugh
Sometimes you'll cry
Life never tells us, the when's or why's
When you've got friends, to wish you well
You'll find your point when
You will exhale (yeah, yeah, say)

Shoop, shoop, shoop
Shoop be doop, shoop, shoop
(repeat)

Hearts are often broken
When there are words unspoken
In your soul there's answers to your prayers
If you're searching for a place you know
A familiar face, somewhere to go
You should look inside yourself
You're halfway there

Sometimes you'll laugh
Sometimes you'll cry
Life never tells us, the when's or why's
But when you've got friend, to wish you well
You'll find your point when
You will exhale (yeah, yeah, say)

Shoop, shoop, shoop
Shoop be doop, shoop, shoop
(repeat)

I Hope..

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

Anytime You Need A Friend

If you're lonely
And need a friend
And troubles seem like
They never end
Just remember
To keep the faith
And love will be there
To light the way

[Chorus:]
Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

When the shadows are closing in
And your spirit diminishing
Just remember
You're not alone
And love will be there
To guide you home

[Chorus]

If you just believe in me
I will love you endlessly
Take my hand
Take me into your heart
I'll be there forever baby
I won't let go
I'll never let go

[Chorus]

Do You Know Where You're Going To

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to?
Do you know?
Do you get what you're hoping for?
When you look behind you there's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know?

Once we were standing still in time
Chasing the fantasies that filled our minds
You knew how I loved you, but my spirit was free
Laughing at the questions that you once asked of me

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to?
Do you know?

Now looking back at all we've had
We let so many dreams just slip through our hands
Why must we wait so long before we see
How sad the answers to those questions can be?

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that life is showing you?
Where are you going to?
Do you know?
Do you get what you're hoping for?
When you look behind you there's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know?

Hero

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your sould
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

[Chorus:]
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

[Chorus]

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

Star

What cha wanna be - when you grow up
What cha gonna do - when your time is up
What cha gonna say - when things go wrong
What cha wanna do - when you're on your own

There's a road - long and winding
The lights are blindin' - but it gets there
Don't give up - don't look back
There's a silver linin' - it's out there somewhere
Everybody wants an answer - everybody needs a friend
We all need a shinin' star on which we can depend
N' so tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before - (to find what you're
looking for)
There'll be times - in your life
Ya when you' be dancin' n' shit - but you ain't gettin it
But don't get disillusioned - no, don't expect too much
Cuz if what you have is all you can get - just keep on
tryin' - it just ain't happened yet
Everybody wants ta be winner - everybody has a dream
We all need a shinin' star when things ain't what they seem
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before - (gotta get where you're
headed for)

Everybody wants some kindness - everybody needs a break
We all need a shinin' star when things get hard to take
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before

I WANDERED lonely as a cloud - William Wordsworth

I WANDERED lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed--and gazed--but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

Let The Dance Begin..

I need a lot of noise around me; lots of banging. I need to hear drums playing, lots and lots of really loud ones. In the background I can hear the faint sound of a sole spanish guitar. It sounds sad and lonely like the one playing it. Whenever I hear it I feel the strumming is into my heart. I don't want that guitar. Let the drums go louder. Let them cover the sound of that guitar. Lots and lots of drums. And let the dance beging; the crazy dance of life.

Why..?!

Why do I keep falling into that sadness over and over again? Why no matter how far I hide, these tears keep finding their way back to my eyes once again? Why am I unable to tell the truth from the lie? Why do some things hurt, though they are logically not supposed to? Why whenever I try to set a distance I feel I am setting a distance from my own heart? Why..? Why are those tears rolling down now from my eyes?!